I really don't think you need to beat yourself up about not using cloth!
At the end of the day, they're only nappies....if the reusables simply aren't working for you then use what ever does work for you. The most important thing is that your baby is comfortable and happy and that you are happy. If you think about it, it's daft getting upset and stressed over a pooh catcher
As others have suggested, you can always put the cloth nappies away and try them again at a later date. If they're still not right then sell them and get some of your money back.
and don't stress about the disposables
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