Anyway on mondays is a mothers knitting group at a local children's centre and you can put your babies in the crèche. We have been twice but the first time we couldn't stay long and Pearl spent most of the time in the knitting room with me as she was too upset.
Today we stayed the whole 2 hours. Pearl screamed every time I left the room. I could hear her screaming and screaming and the teacher came to get me as she was so distressed! I went in and out a few times but she literally was inconsolable

I feel so awful to leave her as I want her to enjoy herself, I feel like it my fault she is like this. Like I am worrying she will be upset and she can read that from me or something?But I don't feel worried I know the level of care will be high and there are loads of activity's to do. I really don't want her to be a clingy child and at home she plays happily on her own!
I have been thinking maybe I should put her into childcare one afternoon a week to help her get used to being separated from me?I just don't know if this would help?I just don't want her to be unconfident and eventually she will have to go to school so will be separated.But maybe by then,as it is a long way off, then she would be fine.
In regards to this group I want to keep taking her to try and build up her confidence! I am also going to taker her to a stay and play which is on every other wednesday. Its the same room and same staff and obviously as its stay and play i would stay with her. Hopefully this will also help!
Anyway tips and suggestions would be greatly appreciated!